||[Aug. 22nd, 2004|11:07 pm]
im mother fucking dope.
today was all this shit from the past wtf
like i saw people i hadent seen
called people i shouldnt have
got calls from people i never thaught would call
haha all i did was turn in applications
then got two CDs: B52s and the sounds
then got gohar
then made fucking vegan mexican food mmmm
yeah we are going to have our vegan bbq soon
youre only invited if i tell you personally.
becuase its going to be dope like that.
me and gohar danced in my room today
i talked to ryan too ive been in such a good mood
sometimes im just angry and vicious and i take it out on him
when i shouldnt because hes dope..
im glad he lives with me
then when ruben called i was like WHAT THE FUUUUUCK
talking about voices from the past and shit.. hahaha...
well at least everything is cleared up no bullshit and shit.
i feel the need to like go home
and get a buzz
and laugh and dance then try to read my book then drink peppermint tea
talk to eriq then go to sleep
funny becuase thats what im saying i WANT TO DO
and i know thats exactly what im GOING TO DO.
i remember when me ryan gohar and ruben and everyone used to hang out
we havent in a long time
its lame how we all let somehting fucking STUPID like... me and rubens past.. get in the way.
friends are friends and im here for anyone thats willing to be there for me too.
so fucking.. uh... yeah
hahaha me and sams song came on
99 red ballooooooooooooons... what the fuck
fucking idiot dip shit motherfuck brown.. chicken of the sea.
i called and left the song on his message machine
he will never call back though, i know it
hes so predictable.
i dont care... if someone isnt going to be there for me i say...
FUCK THEM i only need the people that actually matter
the real friends
i need gohar.
and fucking x vegan x people
fuck gohar! no one understands us!!!
TVU KREW BITCH
i guess i just want to say
that to anyone out there.... reading this....
even if shit has happened between us in the past
even if its the worst shit in the world
i dont hold grudges... you can come to me
just pretend nothing ever happened
any of you are welcome to be my friend.. and i will be a good friend back to you
say i havent talked to you in months due to.. well anything that might have happened
you could randomly call me in like a week if you needed someone to talk to...
and i will be there for you guys... regardless of who you are
what you did
what i did
what happened between us
give me a call you guys.. i really mean it.
619 890 3915
even if i dont know you guys well if you ever need someone to like pick you up because youre drunk.. or someone to talk to because you just had your heart broken... or if youre just bored...
xxx chicken of the sea xxx